It's been a while...

... since I've cried in the shower, but I'm having those feelings again. Being a cancer warrior is HARD, hard, hard and I'm feeling sad today.

1. My mama questions my decision to share this experience "for the whole world" - so now I'm questioning it. Is it bad to blog about everything I'm going through? I can only hope that someone will learn and/or become inspired.
2. My whole family is affected by what I'm going through - even my rock, Hubby. Especially since financially speaking, this has hit us very hard. Makes me sad to see him sad.
3. Sometimes it just feels easier to disappear than to deal with this mess. Not sure how to do that, though.

I'm sure I'm not the only person who feels so sad and, I KNOW this will pass - just wish we could fast-forward past the hard part.